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Reflections of a year gone by

2013 is drawing to a close and it’s this time of year that we tend to look forward to the new year. The opportunity to wipe the slate clean and start again with fresh hope. For me, before looking forward, I look to reflect on the year that was.

I can’t actually believe how fast this year has gone. I remember thinking at the beginning of the year that it was going to be a long, slow one. One where my Miss 4 still had a year to go before starting school, one where I needed to bide my time with my retail business and keep working it hard to get the figures up in order to sell in 2014. One where I needed to be patient with my freelance writing and hone my skills. And now here we are a mere three weeks until the New Year.

Miss now 5 has had her transition days and is ready for school. We have her bag, school uniform, shoes, art smock and library bag and she is so excited. I am too, but I know that even though I never thought I would be one of those mums with tears in her eyes on the first day, I will be. I have them just writing about it.

My retail business has really forged along this year and the figures are good. Part of me would love to work it for another year to actually turn a decent profit for my hard work over the past two years but most of me is ready to move on. Businesses are hard to sell, so I still have to commit to it until that day comes. But I’m excited.

2013 was the year I had my first paid freelance article published. And honestly it was the best feeling and the most memorable moment for the year. I have been fortunate enough to have quite a few pieces published and have been working on my pitching skills and researching online mags and print mags to decide who I want on my hit list next year. I am pleased I have been patient, after all that is one of my major weak points, but being patient has allowed me to learn and grow as a writer and hopefully 2014 will see me blossom with even more articles including seeing my byline in print.

This year I also had another writing accomplishment in completing the first draft of my first novel. That it the second most memorable moment on the year. Knowing that the story in my head is down on paper and it kind of works is such a satisfying feeling. I would have loved to have the first draft edited by now, but it will happen.

But it hasn’t all been success and rainbows, personally it has been a tough year. I’ve had a lot on my plate and at times it has taken it’s toll. I’ve felt like running away more times this year that I’d care to admit. The feeling of being pulled in so many directions when my heart simply wants to go one way has been tough. At times I’ve felt selfish, at times I’ve had my patience fail and been horribly overwhelmed. I’ve been sick more often than usual this year with colds and coughs, a sign that I need to slow down I know. But I’m here and I made it when there were certainly moments I thought I wouldn’t.

This year I managed to not only find myself but make peace with myself. On a deeper level, that has been the most personal of journeys for the year and one I am proud of.

My word for this year was present. To be present in each moment one hundred percent. I’d be lying if I said I’d been totally successful, but for the most part I think I have. I’ve given my kids one hundred percent attention when they need it. Rather than speak to them whilst typing or cooking dinner, I’ve given them my full focus. I’ve tried to multi-task less and concentrate on really focusing on one thing at a time. As I said, it hasn’t been perfect, but after a year I am now so much more mindful of doing so and rather than just be some fad for the year it is something I am going to be mindful of always.

So we bid farewell to 2013 and look forward to a new year. I am bubbling with excitement for the year ahead. I have so many plans, goals and ideas for 2014 and I know it is going to be my year. I can feel it in my bones.

Next post: My goals for 2014

How was 2013 for you?